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Bukankah waktu bukan milikku?
Bukankah dunia bukan milikku?
Bukankah harta bukan milikku?
Bukankah hidup bukan milikku?
Bukankah ragaku bukan milikku?
Bukankah mereka bukan milikku?
Bukankah engkau bukan milikku?

Lalu apa yang menjadi milikku?
-hening-

Argumentative Essay

Sex Education for Children in Formal Education

            Nowadays, the phenomenon about the attitude of children which is getting worse can be caused by the curriculum of formal education. Children become very easily to be knowledgeable because of the development of technology. They can get information as much as possible. The problem is that not all information they get is good, information about free sex for example. As the basic ability of children is replicating what they have seen, it is obvious that the possibility of doing bad attitudes they get from any media is widely opened. Since all of their activities cannot be controlled by parents, the action of preventing their attitude to become worse should be taken by school as the second place of their educational life. They must be taught what is dangerous or not dangerous of sex. Therefore, sex education for children is urgently needed to be applied in curriculum of formal education.

            The idea of refusing the implementation of sex education in formal education oftentimes appears due to the lack of trust to the system of education. Parents may be afraid of educating their children about sex because it will only bring inspiration to replicate what are taught. However the study is conducted with the guidance of the teacher. Besides, students are also good at remembering so that they will be able to remember anything the teacher told them. In addition, the lesson containing sex education will not be given vulgarly. It can be arranged from the simplest lesson such as what is the difference between male and female, what female or male should do or should not do, and which part of body they should protect.

            Some people may be afraid of giving sex education for children because it possibly becomes a way of adding bad information. Furthermore, they worry if the teacher makes mistakes in giving sex explanation. Nevertheless, the availability of sex education in formal education is well designed by the educational institution and well integrated with other relevant lessons, such as biology, PPKN, and religious education. The teachers also will be given some training before they practice to deliver the materials about sex in the class.

            Some parents assume that giving children knowledge about sex is taboo. May be talking about sex with their children is impolite because they will need to explain about genitals or other private parts of the body. Nevertheless, by talking about sex with parents using simple language in casual conversation, children will clearly understand which attitude will cause bad impacts. Children can also criticize some bad attitudes shown in visual media, such as television, you tube or movie. Furthermore, telling them the truth about genitals is not an impolite action. Children will easily understand the true condition of their body if they are told the truth rather than imagery language. For example, boy must know what actually his genital is called. If parents tell him that it is bird not a phallus, he will assume that bird is the same taboo as his genital. Therefore, it is better for parents to tell children the truth rather than let them to assume that those things are taboo. It is also should be applied in formal education so that children will get deeper comprehension about genitals and sex.  

            It may be dangerous for children to know about sex in their early age because it can cause early marriage. However, by knowing sex in their early age, children will be able to know what they are supposed to do or not supposed to do. By integrating the lesson with other moral education, they will be aware of what can bring benefit to their future. Giving sex education even can make children realize that doing sex activity in their early age does not bring them any advantages.

            In conclusion, sex education is necessarily taught to children since at the early time they enter school. However, what matters is the trust of parents towards the education curriculum in term of sex education. They still worry about the side effects of the application of sex education in school curriculum. Actually, parents do not need to fear it as long as the way of delivering sex education is done appropriately. It is indeed curriculum designer(s) who can take this task; creating a curriculum in which sex education is involved without promoting sexual abuse. 

Improving English Language Skills

Three Easy Ways to Improve English Language Skills

The importance of improving English language skills is urgently needed to be prioritized since one of the most required qualifications in employment is the ability of using English. Even though the curriculum of formal education in Indonesia has placed English as a lesson since at least elementary school, informal learning can help to achieve the goal that English should be fluently spoken by students. However, some students cannot afford to pay English courses or to hire private tutors. Therefore, there are three ways to improve English language skills that can be done easily without spending a lot of money: watching English movies, reading English novels, and practicing English in daily communication.

By watching English movies students will be able to enrich their vocabulary. Because vocabulary mastery is highly needed to conduct whether oral or written communication, students can memorize or make a list of words which they can catch from the movies and listen carefully how to pronounce them. It also enables students’ ability in listening. Getting accustomed to listening native conversation can help students to comprehend English and enable them to speak by replicating their pronunciation. Besides, students also can learn English culture from the movies so that they can learn how to show politeness or impoliteness using English, for example.

The second easy way to improve students’ English language skills is reading English novels. Novels can be means of improving students’ reading skill because the stories can attract students’ interest to keep reading and trying to understand what they talk about. It will be more easily to memorize the structure of sentences, the meaning of words, and phrases written in the novels because students can read them repeatedly.

The last is practicing English in daily communication. Making conversation in English with family and friends can help students to be more confident to use English in their daily activities because they will not be shy if they make mistakes. Practicing English in daily routine can be started by doing simple dialogue such as greeting, making small talk, asking permission, and asking for help. If students are getting used to practice those simple daily conversations, they will try to practice some more difficult conversation such as giving advices and telling stories. Then, they will keep improving their conversation by taking more difficult topics.

In conclusion, there are not only taking expensive courses or hiring expensive private tutors can be done to improve students’ English language skills but also watching English movies, reading English novels and practicing English in daily communication. Therefore, students can improve their ability in using English without paying expensive courses or tutors. 

Pdf File : http://www.academia.edu/18617331/How_to_Improve_English_Language_Skills

The Waking

This is one of Roethke's poems. I made the analysis when I was on my Fifth term of Undergraduate Degree of English Literature for Poetry assignment (Mrs. Eka's order). I love poem, not only reading and analyzing but also making. I was twice appointed to read Javanese Poetry (usually called Geguritan) and once to read Indonesian Poetry (Puisi). - No point to tell that

Talking about Poetry, there was something funny about one of my fellows who plagiarized my paper without asking permission. The above smiley is my face whenever I remember that ludicrous moment. Poor bloke.

  The Waking By Theodore Roethke

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.   

I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.   

I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?   

I hear my being dance from ear to ear.   

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?   

God bless the Ground!   I shall walk softly there,   

And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?   

The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;   

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do   

To you and me; so take the lively air,   

And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.   

What falls away is always. And is near.   

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.   

I learn by going where I have to go

a.          Intrinsic Elements

Roethke puts his own view towards this life. He sees that living and death are so close. And that the death is the purpose of the living. I wake to sleep can be assume as the death is the final destination of the living. And take my waking slow can be assumed that we should be careful to spend the time of living in the world. This line I wake to sleep, and take my waking slowly however becomes the main point of this poem because this line is repeated four times. The other line that can be accepted as the point of this poem is I learn by going where I have to go which can be assumed that we have to learn when we have time to live. This line appears in the end of this poem to strengthen the suggestion.

-                Structure

Even tough the last stanza of this poem has different structure that it consists of four lines whereas the others consist of three lines, this poem can be categorized as closed-structure because the last line of this poem functions to strengthen the other line ; the third line of the first stanza.

-                Rhyme

This well-structured poem by Theodore Roethke has also well-structured rhyme. The first and the third lines of each stanza have the same sound in the end of each. Meanwhile in the last stanza, the first, third and the last lines have the same sound in the end. So the rhyme of this poem is ABA, and the of the last stanza is ABAA

-                Theme

This poem describes Roethke's view toward this life. He portrays how to live in this living and how to face the death as the purpose of this living. Both of living and death are so close, so we have to live carefully and learning wherever we can obtain knowledge.

-                Diction

Roethke uses some words to represent natural life such as:

·         Tree : as the natural component in the earth

·         Ground : as the place where everything in this earth in

·         Great nature : as the power of the living and the death

-                Symbol

·       Wake symbolizes the living. The time when humans can learn anything they should learn and take the time carefully to face the death

·         Sleep symbolizes the death. The purpose of human's living.

·         Ground symbolizes the earth where humans walk  and take the time of their living.

·         Tree symbolizes the life. As we know tree provides oxygen for human's breathing need

·         Great nature symbolizes the God. Who has powerful decision about human's fate and destiny

-                Figurative Language

·         Personification : Light takes the Tree ; Great Nature has another thing to do

Academia Analysis

Won't you be the one?

I got the video of the song entitled "You Are The One" by an American singer, Raef Haggag first time from my best friend, Rena. Really, the video is so unique. I searched some information related to this song afterwards. The title of this song is "You Are The One" but I prefer using "Won't You Be The One" as the title of this post to make a "special aim" sense. I am not going to make a paper about this song by analyzing intrinsic and extrinsic elements because I am on holiday from "campus stuff". 

Well, I think I've experienced this beautiful lyric. I thought and wondered over a million times about someone who is destined to be my partner. I didn't know how the ideal figure to be my partner actually looks like. I just thought, "oh maybe him, oh maybe him", but I didn't find someone who really broke my heart or made me desperate for not hearing his voice. 

Once, twice, three, four times or more I just wandered on my "trial". That is not a good path though. 

Thanks to a prominent American Muslim Singer and Songwriter, Raef Haggag anyway. He seems to know all of my feelings about him , I mean my best partner in almost 4 years. When I tried to rewrite the lyric by hand, I knew, I love every single word of the song. 

Lyrics & Melody : Raef Haggag
Arrangement : Maher Zain

You Are The One

I thought of this over a million times

Who would have ever thought that it will be our time?

I just know it,

‘cause you are the one

It ain’t a selfish love, when I’m with you

You remind me of Allah and so I know it’s true

I’ll just say it

You are the one

Chorus

Won’t you be my BFF and ever?

Won’t you be my partner after this world?

We’ll see it, when we believe it together

Dreams are meant to be

‘cause you are the one for me

I never thought that I would feel this way

I ask Allah to bless you every single day

I’ll just say it

‘cause you are the one

And when the times are tough

And we’ve got the world to see

Standing right beside you is where I want to be

I just know it

You are the one

I prayed about this just over a million times

Who would ever thought that I could call you mine?

I just know it

‘cause you are the one

And when there’s gray in our hair

And we’ve not much to do

I want to spend the rest of my days with you

Oh don’t you know it?

You are the one, You are the one

On won’t you be the one?

Forty-five fabulous months with him. Oh, won't you be the one?

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Mencintai diam-diam mungkin indah, tapi tak melegakan
Katakan, tunjukan

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Jika bersamamu adalah takdir Tuhan
Apalah artinya sekedar menunggumu seharian

Jika bersamamu adalah takdir Tuhan
Maka kegelisahan menanti kabarmu adalah kenikmatan

Jika bersamamu adalah takdir Tuhan
Pertemuan dengan senyumu esok pagi adalah anugerah Tuhan

Every Cloud Has a Silver Lining

I'am really.. really surprised and speechless. This good chance is totally unexpected. Well, I wished but didn't really mean to expect it. The Dean called us two days after our graduation. After a long painstaking journey, we got finally the best answer : her invitation. She suggested us to register ourselves to one of the best universities in Indonesia to take Linguistics program. It was a second unexpected thing from her. A very long and boring discussion led us to a decision : we won't take it. There were so many unspeakable reasons. We didn't want to waste time, we got only a few choices, and we had decided.

25/07/2015

Bismillah... I remember clearly when a lecturer asked me about my desire, I told him, the only thing I want to be is being a good housewife. Now, I've found a way to make it better. I want to be a good wife and a good mother, someday. Being lecturer is merely a process. Now, my focus is to complete my postgraduate degree as soon as possible, obtaining 'nidn' as soon as I get the certificate. In at least a couple of years, (it is possible I'll have already married)  I do hope I can manage my time for lecturing and taking care of my children. hahahahaaa 

I'am looking forward to start the study. I've been missing those boring stuff! Making papers, doing assignments, researches, and of course thesis! 

Now I know for sure, we should be optimistic, even difficult times will lead us to better days. 

As a "moved on" pupil, I've already got a good plan, I'll try not to get too close to others except him to avoid injuries in this fragile heart.  That will do. 

25/07/2015

It's been almost 4 years and our journey will be more than decades or centuries. This is only a new doorway we have to open. ~Every Cloud Has a Silver Lining~

Magical Me : Witchcraft and Wizardry

The Beginning : Part I 

It was a week after Christmas holiday when a 12-year-old Gryffindor boy, Albus Severus Potter sat on the best armchair in Gryffindor common room. His eyes were fixed on a fireplace in front of him, but his brain swam wildly throughout the darkness outside.

The room was barely deserted before the fat lady's portrait swung open to reveal his brother, a 16-year-old James Sirius Potter with a handful food.

“Thinkin’ somethin’ mate?” James asked

“ No” Albus’s lips were still curled

“Alright, mm-bed” Yawning, James went upstairs

Albus knows exactly, his brother wouldn’t know what he is thinking about. He would tease him in front of his friends.

As a son of the most famous wizard in the world, the best Auror in a decade, the best Defense Against The Dark Arts teacher, Order Of Merlin, First Class, Harry Potter, and the best seeker of England Quidditch team, the most intelligent contributor of Daily Prophet, Ginevra Molly Potter (nee Weasley), he always thinks of people’s words about him.

He pulled a parchment and quill. He began

Dear Dad,

People keep asking me about you and mum. Reckon they want a photograph with signature of yours. Yesterday, I couldn’t brew my potion again, they teased me and told me that possibly I am not your and mum’s son. Dad, can I move to Ravenclaw? I can befriend with Fred. Or Durmstrang? You are a friend of the headmaster, Mr. Krum. If you’re not busy in the ministry please answer pronto.

Love

Albus

PS : Don’t tell mum

If you’re busy in the ministry, please answer pronto anyway.

#To be continued tomorrow, I am busy like hell with these documents -_- # 

A Question

“Are you alright?”

“Excellent”

“Can I have a quick word with you?”

“Yes, quick”

“No, not that quick”

“Okay as long as it is not in the form of question”

“I think it is a question”

“So you won’t have it”

“Why?”

“Because I really hate questions”

“Don’t be ridiculous, I will only ask a question, and you will of course answer it, won’t you?

“I’ve told you, I won’t”

“It’s really a simple question, why don’t you just give me a simple answer then?

“I won’t answer a single simple question”

“Really, why?”

“I don’t like answering”

“So, why did you answer those questions? I’ve just questioned you already.

“Oh, Shut up”

I don’t know how I stand for that long. I am getting used to be all alone and afar. I haven’t prepared a proper answer to their question. I think I prefer taking TOEFL than answering their annual horrific question. Couple weeks ago I believed in a few seconds the holiday would be pretty nice. At least I can make them sure enough to stop worrying my answer. Besides, I thought the chance of answering their or neighbor’s question would be less painful. Tonight, however a horrible news came to my ears as a wild arrow. The idea of coming to my own home alone makes me wondering if I just go abroad for war instead. The worst idea is about leaving from my home again and alone again. How can I explain to them? How can they explain to them? For a split second I think I just need to turn my phone off, but it doesn’t seem good at all, my sister will tell her husband to fetch me, and she will give me a long boring speech about what I have done. My mother will of course ask her what happens to me, and I will need to answer their questions again. Now I realize, that simple question has been taunting and torturing me. That simple question is a cause of those sleepless dream and dreamy sleep. That simple question is apparently the reason of tearing for every moment of my broken heart. That simple question is obviously about you.

Today I can’t remember how to show my teeth. My boss keeps asking me about the progress of my work. It sounds even more painful than my own singing. Everybody looks like trolls in my eyes. I don’t have any idea what to talk to them. Preparing renewal contract, contacting vendors, making the quotations, are less enjoyable than sitting above the closed closet.

I’ve always been thinking about this and I’ve never been able to manage my pounding heart whenever I faced this. Do I need to go as far as I can away and never look back even though just to make sure everyone is alright, to make sure you are alright?

How to start then? Talking to you? I have done it. Begging you? I have done it. Shutting myself? Must be a good solution.

How soon is that soon?

Second?

Minute?

Hour?

Day?

Week?

Month?

Year?

Years?

Years?

I can think nothing about thing for something such an indecisive thing. I am drowning into an indefinite valley ever since I decided to take an extreme journey of uncertainty. I’ve given my life with a word as a payment : soon. I’ve been avoiding their messages, phones, and chats. They look like a lifetime terror. What is that soon for? How soon is that soon?

I love being the object of their solicitudes, very nice of them. Does every woman ever happen to this impasse? 

Emansipasi Wanita dan Layar Terkembang karya Sutan Takdir Alisjahbana

copas : http://fantasyworldastia.blogspot.com/2012/10/sinopsis-novel-layar-terkembang-karya.html

Tuti dan Maria adalah kakak beradik, anak dari Raden Wiriatmadja mantan Wedana daerah Banten. Sementara itu ibu mereka telah meninggal. Meskipun mereka adik-kakak, mereka memiliki watak yang sangat berbeda. Tuti si sulung adalah seorang gadis yang pendiam, tegap, kukuh pendiriannya, jarang sekali memuji, dan aktif dalam organisasi-organisasi wanita. Sementara Maria adalah gadis yang periang, lincah, dan mudah kagum.

            Diceritakan pada hari Minggu Tuti dan Maria pergi ke akuarium di pasar ikan. Di tempat itu mereka bertemu dengan seorang pemuda yang tinggi badannya dan berkulit bersih, berpakaian putih berdasi kupu-kupu, dan memakai kopiah beledu hitam. Mereka bertemu ketika hendak mengambil sepeda dan meninggalkan pasar, pada saat itu pula mereka berbincang-bincang dan berkenalan. Nama pemuda itu adalah Yusuf, dia adalah seorang mahasiswa sekolah tinggi kedokteran. Sementara Maria adalah murid H.B.S Corpentier Alting Stichting dan Tuti adalah seorang guru di sekolah H.I.S Arjuna di Petojo. Mereka berbincang samapai di depan rumah Tuti dan Maria.

            Yusuf adalah putra dari Demang Munaf di Matapura, Sumatra Selatan. Semenjak pertemuan itu Yusuf selalu terbayang-bayang kedua gadis yang ia temui di akuarium., terutama Maria. Yusuf telah jatuh cinta kepada Maria sejak pertama kali bertemu, bahkan dia berharap untuk bisa bertemu lagi dengannya. Tidak disangka oleh Yusuf, keesokan harinya dia bertemu lagi di depan hotel Des Indes. Semenjak pertemuan  keduanya itu, Yusuf mulai sering menjemput Maria untuk berangkat sekolah serta dia juga sudah mulai berani berkunjung ke rumah Maria. Sementara itu Tuti dan ayahnya melihat hubungan kedua remaja itu tampak bukan lagi hubungan persahabatan biasa.

            Tuti sendiri terus disibukan oleh kegiatan-kegiatan nya dalam kongres Putri Sedar yang diadakan di Jakarta, dia sempat berpidato yang isinya membicarakan tentang emansipasi wanita. Tuti dikenal sebagai seorang pendekar yang pandai meimilih kata, dapat membuat setiap orang yang mendengarnya tertarik dan terhanyut.

            Sesudah ujian doctoral pertama dan kedua berturut-turut selesai, Yusuf pulang ke rumah orang tuanya di Martapura, Sumatra Selatan. Selama  berlibur Yusuf dan Maria saling mengirim surat, dalam surat tersebut Maria mengatakan kalau dia dan Tuti telah pindah ke Bandung. Kegiatan surat menyurat tersebut membuat Yusuf semakin merindukan Maria. Sehingga pada akhirnya Yusuf memutuskan untuk segera kembali ke Jakarta dan ke Bandung untuk mengunjungi Maria. Kedatangan Yusuf disambut hangat oleh Maria dan Tuti. Setelah itu Yusuf mengajak Maria berjalan-jalan ke air terjun Dago, tetapi Tuti tidak dapat meninggalkan kesibukannya. Di tempat itu Yusuf menyatakan perasaan cintanya kepada Maria.

            “Maria, Maria, tahukah engkau saya cinta kepadamu?”

            “Lama benar engkau menyuruh saya menanti katamu…”

            Setelah kejadian itu, kelakuan Maria berubah. Percakapannya selalu tentang Yusuf saja, ingatannya sering tidak menentu, dan sering melamun. Sehingga Rukamah sering mengganggunya. Sementara hari-hari Maria penuh kehangatan bersama Yusuf, Tuti sendiri lebih banya membaca buku. Sebenarnya pikiran Tuti terganggu oleh keinginannya untuk merasakan kemesraan cinta. Melihat kemesraan Maria dan Yusuf, Tuti pun ingin mengalaminya. Tetapi Tuti juga memiliki ke khawatiran terhadap hubungan Maria dan Yusuf. Kemudian Tuti menasehati Maria agar jangan sampai diperbudak oleh cinta. Nasihat tulus Tuti justru memicu pertengkaran diantara mereka dan memberikan pukulan keras terhadap Tuti.

            “Engkau rupanya tiada dapat diajak berbicara lagi,”kata Tuti amarah pula, mendengar jawaban adiknya yang tidak mengindahkan nasihatnya, “Sejak engkau cinta kepada Yusuf, rupanya otakmu sudah hilang sama sekali. Engkau tidak dapat menimbang buruk-baiknya lagi. Sudahlah! Apa gunanya memberi nasihat orang serupa ini?”

            “Biarlah saya katamu tidak berotak lagi. Saya cinta kepadanya, ia cinta kepada saya. Saya percaya kepadanya dan saya hendak menyerahkan seluruh nasib saya ditangannya, biarlah bagaimana dibuatnya. Demikian kata hati saya. Saya tidak meminta dan tida perlu nasihatmu. Cinta engkau barangkali cinta perdagangan, baik dan buruk ditimbang sampai semiligram, tidak hendak rugi barang sedikit. Patutlah pertunanganmu dengan Hambali dahulu putus!”

            “Tutup mulutmu yang lancing itu, nanti saya remas.”

            Dari kejadian itu, Tuti sama sekali tidak berbicara dengan Maria, juga dia merasa sendiri dan sepi dalam kehidupannya.

            Ketika Maria mendadak terkena penyakit malaria dan TBC, Tuti pun kembali memperhatikan Maria, Tuti menjaganya dengan sabar. Pada saat itu juga adik Supomo datang atas perintah Supomo untuk meminta jawaban pernyataan cintanya kepada Tuti. Sebenarnya Tuti sudah ingin memiliki seorang kekasih, tetapi Supomo dipandangnya bukan pria idaman yang diinginkan Tuti. Maka dengan segera Tuti menulis surat penolakan.

            Sementara itu, keadaan Maria semakin hari makin bertambah parah. Kemudian ayahnya, Tuti, dan Yusuf memutuskan untuk merawatnya di rumah sakit. Dokter yang merawatnya menyarankanagar Maria dibawa ke rumah sakit khusus penderita penyakit TBC wanita di Pacet, Sindanglaya Jawa Barat. Perawatan Maria sudah berjalan sebulan lebih lamanya. Namun keadaannya tidak juga mengalami perubahan, yang terjadi adalah kondisi Maria semakin lemah.

            Pada suatu kesempatan, Tuti dan Yusuf berlibur di rumah Ratna dan Saleh di Sindanglaya, disitulah Tuti mulai terbuka dalam memandang kehidupan di pedesaan. Kehidupan suami istri yang melewati hari-harinya dengan bercocok tanam, ternyata juga mampu membimbing masyarakat sekitarnya menjadi sadar akan pentingnya pendidikan. Keadaan tersebut benar-benar telah menggugah alam pikiran Tuti. Ia menyadari bahwa kehidupan mulia, mengabdi kepada masyarakat tidak hanya dapat dilakukan di kota atau dalam kegiatan-kegiatan organisasi, sebagaimana yang selama ini ia lakukan. Tetapi juga di desa atau di masyarakat mana pun, pengabdian itu dapat dilakukan.

            Semakin hari hubungan Yusuf dan tuti semakin akrab, sementara itu kondisi kesehatan Maria justru semakin mengkhawatirkan. Dokter yang merawatnya pun sudah tidak dapat berbuat lebih banyak lagi. Pada saat kritis Maria mengatakan sesuatu sebelum ia menginggal.

            “Badan saya tidak kuat lagi, entah apa sebabnya. Tak lama lagi saya hidup di dunia ini. Lain-lain rasanya… alangkah berbahagia saya rasanya di akhirat nanti, kalau saya tahu, kalau kakandaku berdua hidup rukun dan berkasih-kasihan seperti kelihatan kepada saya dalam beberapa hari ini. Inilah permintaan saya yang penghabisan dan saya, saya tidak rela selama-lamanya kalau kakandaku masing-masing mencari peruntungan pada orang lain.”Demikianlah pesan terakhir almarhum Maria.

            Setelah beberapa lama kemudian, sesuai dengan pesan terakhir Maria, Yusuf dan Tuti menikah dan bahagia selama-lamanya.

TAMAT

Meski belum pernah membaca novelnya, judul novel ini sudah tak asing lagi sejak masih belajar pelajaran Bahasa Indonesia di Sekolah Dasar dulu. Layar Terkembang menjadi salah satu novel yang sering dijadikan pembahasan dalam pelajaran Bahasa Indonesia. Dilihat dari sinopsis diatas, alur cerita Layar Terkembang sebenarnya sederhana. Namun demikian, pelajaran yang dapat diambil sungguh luar biasa. Sosok Tuti yang digambarkan sebagai perempuan berpendidikan tinggi, aktifis di berbagai organisasi, dan sebagai simbol emansipasi wanita pada masa itu di masyarakatnya rupanya menganggap adiknya Maria yang sedang jatuh cinta sebagai perempuan yang kehilangan akal sehatnya. Pandanganya pada apa yang dirasakan Maria ini menyulutkan perpecahan diantara keduanya. Pandangan Tuti soal 'jatuh cinta' mulai berubah ketika adiknya sakit parah dan di akhir hayatnya berpesan agar Tuti hidup berbahagia dengan orang yang Maria cintai. Tuti sadar, sebagai perempuan ia memerlukan pria sebagai teman hidupnya, sebagai imam dan pengayomnya. Setinggi apapun pendidikan perempuan, ia harus ingat bahwa kehidupan baru lahir dari rahimnya yang berarti tanggung jawabnyalah merawat, mengasuh, serta mendidik manusia-manusia baru di bumi ini. Berpendidikan tinggi adalah anugrah, membimbing anak-anak menjadi orang-orang besar yang soleh adalah anugrah yang lebih besar.

Pelangi Retak

Langitpun tak selalu cerah

Ada kalanya manusia merindukan hujan yang basah

Hujanpun tak selamanya membuat gelisah

Satu waktu ia merengkuh kembali hati - hati yang patah

Dalam hidup selalu ada yang datang dan pergi. Ada yang singgah sebentar, ada pula yang segera pergi setelah sekian lama menyimpan duri, beberapa diantaranya tetap bertahan. Aku tak mengharapkan hubungan pertemanan yang sempurna, bahkan aku, rena, lilis dan ncus yang sudah bersama-sama sejak balita pun masih saja belum sepenuhnya klop. Ditambah jarak dan kesibukan yang membuat komunikasi kami kian menjarang.

Tapi hidup selalu penuh dengan pelajaran. Satu pelajaran yang membuatku kesulitan bukan kepalang adalah pelajaran tentang introspeksi diri. Masalah bertubi-tubi nyatanya hanya membuatku mahir mengeluh, bukan berbenah diri. Tapi ada yang lebih sulit dari pelajaran ini, yaitu soal ikhlas. Beberapa menit yang lalu aku memutuskan akan mengikhlaskan ujian-ujian itu datang, tapi beberapa menit kemudian bermacam macam argumentasi yang bercokol di benaku mulai menggoyahkan keikhlasanku yang tadi. Dan begitu seterusnya.

Aku menyayangkan kehadiranmu dalam dunia teman bertemanku akan hanya sebentar saja. Aku kira aku sudah tahu hitam putihmu begitupun sebaliknya, ternyata tidak. Aku begitu hitam dimatamu. Tapi sudahlah, apa gunanya menerangi gedung gelap dengan sebatang lilin. Berbahagialah saja dengan duniamu, meski yang kau ingat hanya selalu keburukanku, dan keburukan-keburukan teman-teman yang kau jauhi sebelum aku. Karena akupun berbahagia dengan duniaku, tanpa lupa untuk mengenang kebaikanmu. Aku bahkan sudah kebal dengan kata-kata busukmu. Karena aku bersama orang-orang yang mengingatkanku untuk dekat dengan-Nya. Karena pada akhirnya semuanya kuserahkan pada-Nya. Termasuk hatimu. Berbahagialah, dan mendekatlah kepada-Nya, semoga ada sinar yang mampu menerangi hatimu segera, lusa atau kelak dimasa mendatang. Semoga kita sama-sama dijauhkan dari sifat Ananiah, Ghadab, Hasad, Ghibah dan Namimah.

Grindelwald and Dumbledore

Grindelwald and Dumbledore

the nephew of Bathilda Bagshot, the writer of A History of Magic and the oldest son of Kendra Dumbledore

Gallert was the most powerful and dangerous wizard before the Dark Lord existence. He used to befriend with Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore in his teenage. Their relationship was built ever since an unintended meeting in his aunty’s house, Bathilda Bagshot. Both young Albus and young Gallert were in equal intelligent quality. They shared many ideas and knowledge. Gallert found that Albus is a brilliant wizard. Gallert enjoyed discussing many great things with Albus. Nonetheless, there was always a difference between two men who have their head apart. Gallert believed that pure blood is the first in wizard world, and wizard is the first in the world. This idea was not approved by Albus. Regardless of his awful past about an incident with muggles, Albus saw that all people should be treated equally. However, Albus still believed that Gallert could be argued.

Albus wondered how his friend became dangerously interested in collecting and mastering the Deathly Hallows. His ambition of possessing three master of death was not in Albus’s right opinion. Albus refused his idea to go wandering with him to find Hallows as a companion. Albus was confronted by his younger brother, Albeforth. An accident happened, and nobody knew who casted the curse that kills Ariana, Albus’s younger sister.

The time flies. Albus has been trying to forget his past ever since he decided to come back to Hogwarts as a teacher. He enjoyed himself training young wizards and gaining so many achievements greatly. On the other hand, Gallert built his power to fulfill his ambition to reign the world. He became the most powerful and dangerous wizard in that time.

Albus, was known to be a friend of Gallert forced to face him. They both dueled although Albus didn’t want to confront him because Albus was worried that Gallert would reveal whose curse killed Arriana in that day. Albus won, Gallert was taken to the prison.

Albus then possessed The Elder Wand, one of the Hallows. He never used that wand in an ambition of power. He kept training young wizards, till one day he met a boy, a special boy with some special talents, a boy who would be the most dangerous wizard after his best friend, Tom Riddle. He knew something dreadful inside that boy, but he kept teaching him many good things. He kept his eyes on him for over 7 years until his graduation.

Years after his arrival in the school, he became as notorious as Gallert was. He became even more powerful than Gallert, therefore Albus could not just confront him straightly. He had to make a plan, a dangerous brilliant plan. But again, confidence of intelligence licked him to put other people in his brilliant plan. His plan of setting a Boy Who Lived to face The Dark Lord voluntarily has taken almost 18 years, and dozen innocent people have died.

Intelligence is oftentimes dangerous without a good heart to control.

I keep blaming myself for letting him walking through that lonely path. I feel like I can’t forgive myself for what he has done. I don’t even think to mark him as my “past”. We have been together for many years, but I still have no idea how to connect with him. I can’t find the best way to communicate with him. I’ve learned many things from him, though I can’t even remember what I have given to him, probably nothing, I still believe he is a best partner of mine. I need to talk to him, not for any kind of apology, nor acceptance, but his heart. I never want to put him in any statement of rivalry, he is better than me in some ways. I don’t have ability to walk lonely through that path, but he does. I can’t say anything to comfort him anytime he need, but he can. I can’t take too much hatred to that people we’ve been discussing for years, but he can. He is always better than me.

My regret is growing worse, regret of allowing him living with those thoughts, of not trying enough to remind him to be faithful in the right way. I was on my edge whenever we had conversation about people and life. I was worried to be the one who will be responsible of his bad temper. I tried to remind him to live socially, may be it wasn’t enough for he kept adoring his brilliant intelligence. I believe that I did believe that his ideas about intelligence amazed me.

He was a spectacular man, and I was no one. I was jealous of his knowledge and his ideas. It motivated me to study harder, harder than ever. I was lucky probably. I don’t know his thoughts of me become that bad.. but I do care about him. I do want him to live his life socially, and peacefully. I do need to talk to him that we have to accept other persons to come into our life. We don’t need to change ourselves into somebody else, we just need to accept them, and be fair for there is always a chance for us to be “the wrong”, because we are human beings whom God placed for some reasons. We can’t always be “the right”, even we have to believe and learn that in a war we must consider that our enemy is not always “wrong” and we are not always “right”.

It doesn’t matter what you did in the past, it matters what you choose now, be that brilliant spectacular Grindelwald, or that old wise Dumbledore.

Godric Hollow, May 2015

Sincerely

Nagini

I Believe I Can Fly, I Believe I Can Touch the Sky

Kamis, 16 April 2015

Alhamdulillahirrabil 'alamin... Teman seangkatanku waktu SMK dulu mungkin sudah merasakan ini beberapa tahun yang lalu.. Mereka yang berkesempatan menikmati kemegahan perguruan tinggi tanpa harus mencari modal sendiri mungkin sudah merasakan kebahagiaan ini.

Ah tak apa, tak pernah terlambat untuk bersyukur, Alhamdulillah yaa Allah...

Terima kasih atas kesempatan mengundang kedua orang tua, serta kakak dan adiku untuk berbagi kebahagiaan ini, karena tanpa mereka mustahil sekali untuk sampai pada saat ini.

Perjuangan 3 setengah tahun untuk meraih gelar Sarjana Strata 1 berakhir dengan indah.

Sangat indah... Alhamdulillah... Semoga kami menjadi akademisi yang amanah... 

Selamat mas Amir atas gelar wisudawan terbaik, bangga sekali berada disisimu..

Kebahagiaan yang diawali dengan semangat menggebu, bersaing sehat dengan partner terbaiku, teman diskusi, teman bersilang pendapat, teman terisolasi dan te-rdeskriminasi-ku, Amir & Anggit, bangganya dipertemukan dengan kalian. 

Rasanya genggaman tangan kita semakin erat, seiring keterasingan kita dari ke-perlente-an dan ke-hedonisme-an. Aku senang sekali karena selara kalian sama sekali tidak fashion-iawi, dan bersama-sama kalian sepanjang hiruk pikuk kehidupan perkampusan 3 setengah tahun ini memberiku suntikan semangat kompetisi yang sehat.

Aku belajar banyak dari kalian, karena awal perkuliahan aku masih malas-malasan. Bersama kalian belajar, mengerjakan tugas, dan mempersiapkan materi setiap pertemuan menjadi luar biasa nikmat. Sayang hanya boleh satu orang yang maju ke podium, kalau saja ada 3 pasti kita sudah bersebelahan menerima plakat. Pada akhirnya ketidak-adilan yang kita terima dan kecurangan-kecurangan yang terpaksa harus kita saksikan bisa kita sudahi dengan kemenangan. 

Jangan dulu takabur, masih banyak gerbang-gerbang selanjutnya yang belum kita buka, masih ada tanggung jawab mencerdaskan kehidupan (dan mental) bangsa. Semoga amanah yang tersemat dengan melekatnya gelar SS dibelakang nama kita dapat kita pertanggung jawabkan. Selamat untuk kita bertiga! Dan Selamat atas diterimanya tawaran ibu Dekan !!!! Alhamdulillah.........


Teruntuk yang tercinta :
Bapake, Yune, Mba Asih, Dodo, A Madin, Tasya, Azka, Degel, Nana, Raina, dan semuanya..

Yang banyak membantu :
Pak Moko, Mba Dita, Dita, dan semuanya..

Teman seperjuangan :
Anggit, Ica, Susan, Lita, Dessy

Yang spesial :
Mas Amir

"I Believe I Can Fly" R Kelly 

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[Chorus:]
I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[Chorus]

Hey, cause I believe in me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it (I can do it)
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[Chorus]

Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly-eye-eye-eye
Hum, fly-eye-eye

source : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/rkelly/ibelieveicanfly.html

with you with you with you..

I need you boo

tresno tuhu tresno romo ibu

sissy

Thank you so much

Mr. Yan & Mr. Ratmo

with the dean

Yeayyy!! Ical & Anggit, good job !

Sri-Kandis

Mom Djas