On a fine Sunday in the third week of the last month in
2017, I woke up too early. It might have been 02.00 a.m or 03.00 I didn’t
bother myself to check my phone because I knew my clock wasn’t set well. I
stayed awake and thought of many things. I planned to take some water and get
wudhu before praying. It was only a plan for a while because I suddenly got a
brilliant yet usual and monthly idea. The fear of getting disappointed because I’ve
been doing this monthly ever since I am married always appeared like this. I
tried to be realistic because when I was on my fertile window, my husband and I
got a very bad influenza and we didn’t try as much as other months before. I reached
my phone and checked the time, it was 02.44 a.m. I still had time to just lay on
my bad while looking at my husband who had deeply fallen asleep since may be three
hours ago.
I opened some apps on my phone and came to flo, an app which has been installed
since my period didn’t come as regularly as usual five months ago. I read the
notification that told me to wish again… it was seven days late. Should I take
the test? No.. I possibly need to wait for some days later. I’ve experienced it
on previous month, I was told to be late for five days but it brought no result
because the ‘red’ came right after I woke up early morning on the sixth day. I closed the app
desperately and put my phone back. An idea to take a test still
bothered me. It won’t hurt me though, I thought. Yeah… whatever the result won’t
hurt me. If it’s negative I just need to try again next month, or may be next 2,3,4,5,6,7,…
months. If it’s positive…. Ah I don’t need to think too far, I reminded myself.
O.. my heart, please stay strong for whatever the result.
I did it. I took the stick and dipped it into a familiar
container. It just needed a blink to make my mouth widely opened. It was not
the same stick with several sticks that I have been getting bored of. It was
not the disappointing results that have been making me tired. It was not only
unbelievable, It was an AMAZING GIFT! Two stripes! Two eagerly-awaited
stripes!!!! I was hardly able to believe it! The stripes were amazingly too
clear, too bright, and too obvious!!! I'm gonna be a mother of a whether-beautiful-or-handsome
kid! I got a good news for my parents & my parents in law!
Now, I reach the 10 weeks of my pregnancy and it is so
lovely. My husband has been taking care of me well and better during these 2
months. He serves me like a grandma! He does the laundry, he serves my meal, he
does the cleaning and everything. I never asked him to do so, but the stuffs seemed
to be really enjoyable for him. I think our love is growing even stronger now.
Baby, you should be a proud child… You’ll be born and taken care by a super-man dad!
