The Day: Let me be your always bride, let me be your always home.

Let me be your always home, let me be your always bride though I am not the finest mortal.

From now on, let me be your always home.

I am sure that I have placed my heart in the right place, in yours. You were so bright in the very beginning of our journey, yet I tried to see your face, to know your heart. I was so silly to question your feeling. I was not so confident myself about my feeling on you.

I have been seeing your sincerity through your care and love. I am thundering many times, yet I am drowning into a pair of your diaphanous eyes. I hate the absence of your bike’s roar, but my solicitudes drives me mad to know your safety. Please be always safe..

65 months have been passed by. We have journeyed not an easy path, nor the brightest one. You tell me nothing about my shortfall. You just ascertain me that I am the one. I am glad that you always keep your eyes straight in mine though I am not the finest mortal. I am not the finest mortal. I promise nothing to redeem my unsavory negligence, yet not a single orison is praised without your name.

Now we are pronounced a husband and wife.

To confer housewifery, I am an unknowledgeable one. So, lead me.. Lead me to follow that voice of heaven.  Lead me through the beauty of the blessed life.

Let me be your always home,

Let me be your always bride,

Though I am not the finest mortal

I am not the finest mortal

Marriage is the biggest chapter of my life. I promise to myself, I will fill it with joy and love that will be shared with my sweethearts: my beloved husband, my mom, my dad, my mother in law, my father in law, my sister, my lil brother, my sisters and brothers in law, my cousins, my nieces, my nephews, my best friends, my VACC. 

The Proposal

11th December 2016

No word can express my feeling on that day. I was and am glad that you proposed me to be your fiance and future wife.
It has been 62 months since the first time we sat side by side.
For now on, I don't wish that we will face no obstacles in our journey. I do wish that we will be always together to face anything in our future. I will always sit next to you capturing every single move of yours.
I hope we will be growing old together, our love will be growing stronger than ever, and our days will be as sweet as this 11th of December.

Miscellaneous

February nearly reaches its end. My college final examination was done ages ago, but the other final examination seems to come slow-motion-ly. I look forward to have a complete holiday, with only some new movies or new books and him along day, though I may only find that on Sunday, when I am free of factory-labor-job. I expect the holiday will truly come next Sunday, after correcting my students’ examination of course. That would be pretty nice I think, a holiday in rainy session. The blanket would be comfortably warm, just like last night. Yeah, the thunderstorms were so ghastly last night, the rain was so heavy, the bed was so smooth, what a perfect night!

It’s been so long time since the last time I wrote in this diary. Ummm.. 2 months? Well, now I am hardly able to sum up all things happened during 2 months. My legal jobs were running well, as well as my stomach in these 2 days,  My post-graduate study was as good as my cooking, my teaching activities were.. how can I say.. alright, as alright as my motorbike. I don’t really know why though, I was dead trying to look as wise as other lecturers, and I failed. So I did other way to act like (the real) lecturer : being old woman – and I failed for the second time. Finally, weeks ago I just realize that for now I just need to be myself and treat them just as my friends. I don’t need to be respected, for I only want to share what I know and try myself to find the best way to share – because I can’t share anything else perhaps. The other difficulty I found during this very first semester was the way of being blended with senior lecturers -_-. Anyhow, it didn’t make me down whenever I only focused on my purpose : teaching sharing.

I am surprised that there are 3 more semesters ahead to achieve my MPd and I am looking forward to strike a blow for the next journey, PhD may be? *Amiin*

I am feeling so ambitious… doing more, giving more.