February nearly reaches its end. My college final
examination was done ages ago, but the other final examination seems to come
slow-motion-ly. I look forward to have a complete holiday, with only some new
movies or new books and him along day,
though I may only find that on Sunday, when I am free of factory-labor-job. I
expect the holiday will truly come next Sunday, after correcting my students’
examination of course. That would be pretty nice I think, a holiday in rainy
session. The blanket would be comfortably warm, just like last night. Yeah, the
thunderstorms were so ghastly last
night, the rain was so heavy, the bed was so smooth, what a perfect night!
It’s been so long time since the last time I wrote in this
diary. Ummm.. 2 months? Well, now I am hardly able to sum up all things happened
during 2 months. My legal jobs were running well, as well as my stomach in
these 2 days, My post-graduate study was
as good as my cooking, my teaching activities were.. how can I say.. alright,
as alright as my motorbike. I don’t really know why though, I was dead trying
to look as wise as other lecturers, and I failed. So I did other way to act
like (the real) lecturer : being old woman – and I failed for the second
time. Finally, weeks ago I just realize that for now I just need to be myself
and treat them just as my friends. I don’t need to be respected, for I only
want to share what I know and try myself to find the best way to share –
because I can’t share anything else perhaps. The other difficulty I found
during this very first semester was the way of being blended with senior
lecturers -_-. Anyhow, it didn’t make me down whenever I only focused on my
purpose : teaching sharing.
I am surprised that there are 3 more semesters ahead to
achieve my MPd and I am looking forward to strike a blow for the next journey,
PhD may be? *Amiin*
I am feeling so
ambitious… doing more, giving more.
